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Currently listening to: Current Mood: 1:27 p.m. - 12/15/2009 So why waste my time? Oh because I get lonely. Well you ask, why not focus in on guys you actually like? Because I'm an idiot. A shy idiot. (I know what you're thinking, me, shy? Yeah right) But no, it's true. I'm very shy about letting my true feelings be known. I'm afraid of putting myself out there and being rejected. (Probably because I've done so much rejecting in my day). There are two guys right now who I actually really like right now, but neither of them has the slightest clue. With one of them, when I overcome the shyness and manage to strike up a convo wiht him, I try to flirt a little, to hint at the fact that I'd like to 'see' him again. With the other one, I'm just a complete dumbass, because I've pretty much assured him that it will be a cold day in hell before I ever have any feelings for him that extend beyond friendship. I flirt with him a little, no a lot more openly, but he'll never know or believe that the flirting is smething more than a personality trait of mine because i make a point of calling him unattractive and unappealing to me. In all fairness initially I wasn't attracted to him. Well actually I guess I kind of was, I just didn't realize it until recently. I'm stuck in that stupid traditionla menatality where the guy has to persue the girl, and if he doesn't then that means he's not interested at all. But what about shy guys? Or guys who want to avoid rejection so don't make points of going after girls who have told them over and over again that they have no interest in them. If only guys were able to read between the lines. Guy number 2 would definately see the "I want you's" behind the "All we'll ever be is friends" and guy number 1 would clearly see that I have yet to meet someone as close to everything I look for in an ideal mate as him. � � |