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Currently listening to: Current Mood: 3:34 p.m. - 09/14/2010 On a semi-related note, I think I am falling into a deep depression. I thought my recent love of sleep was a result of my physical illness, but my lack of motivation to leave my house even to go out drinking with my friends has made me realize that it's more than that. It's my mental illness. I'm going back to the place I've been so many times before. I've been resisting the urge to rekindle my love affair with razor blades, but I fear that soon I wont be able to reisit it any longer. I think I need to start smoking again, or doing some kind of drug. But what? And how do I get my hands on large quantities of it? I've tried living without substance abuse, and its killing me. I don't know what else to do. � � |