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Currently listening to: Current Mood: 9:24 a.m. - 2004-02-25 The heart asks pleasure first, And then, excuse from pain; And then those little anodynes That deaden suffering; And then to go to sleep; And then if it should be The will of its Inquisitor, The liberty to die. -Emily Dickinson
First I wanted to have a good semester with good grades, and good relationships, etc. I just wanted everyhting to be good this semester and work out with no problems. Then a few weeks into it I realized that everything wasn't going to go great what with my roommates abandoning me and classes being more difficult than I had anticipated. So I just wanted to get through it without feeling any pain. Then a couple weeks later, probably the week before my birthday, the pain came. And all I wanted was to deaden it. Now the pain and suffering has gotten even worse, and I can't deaden it, so I want to sleep everything away. I just hope I can start the process over beofre it gets to the point where my heart asks for the liberty to die. Although I know that my mind will never grant my heart that liberty, so I shouldn't be too worried.
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