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Currently listening to: Current Mood: 12:46 a.m. - 11/08/2006 Then I woke up and reality set in. We are far from being able to walk off into that sunset together. And at this point I'm not even sure that we'll ever be able to. I want to give up. but in the dream I didn't give up. I kept pushing. I kept fighting for what I knew in my heart was right, and the reward was magical. I used to fight for us. Everytime you'd be ready to give up I'd fight for us and we'd stay togther. then one day I got tired of fighting and settled for the easier distraction that was sitting in front of me. And I lost you, and wasted almost 3 years of my life that I'll never be able to get back, just hoping that one day I'd be able to feel for him something close to what I felt for you. I never did. And if only I hadn't given up. If only I'd fought a little harder then we'd still have each other. But I hate feeling that way too. Becasue logically I should give up on you. I should accept the fact that you're bad news and walk away. You're no good for me at all. But I can't seem to let you go. I can't seem to give up on you. I know in my heart that one day that wonderful man who I fell in love with will emerge and we'll finally be together. And you'll thank me for never giving up on you. And its all becasue of that damned dream I had last night. i was ready to give up, but I'm a strong believer in the power of dreamns. And I believe that this dream was telling me not to make the mistake that I made 3 years ago. But my mind keeps telling me that it would be a mistake to hold on. I just don't know what to do. Maybe I'll have another dream tonight that will help clear things up. � � |