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Currently listening to: Please don't stop the music - rhianna Current Mood: drunk and content 1:16 a.m. - 09/29/2007 So I thought I'd write something to counter my last entr.y3 So here's the deal. I don't want to be in a relationship now. Especially a long sdistance one because HELLO I'm me, and I'm shady as hell, hence the shady lady name, But I do love him more than anything. And could see myself being with him and only him (he's the only person i see myself in that way with) But again i know unless something chan ges and I actually do move back to FL (like many people want me to btw) then we shouldn't be together it would be torturous for both of us. What we have now is fine. I'm content and so is he. My main thing though is that I don't want him to find a gf down there that forces us to end our lovely littel relationship. But anyway, love is good, love sucks too though. I don't know. All I know is that I am content now. But eventually I thinkI'll want more. its like seriously what are we doing? Every vcisit I fall more and more in love with him, if that's even possible. Which is stupid since we can't be together. So why visit at all? Simply because I can't live without him. Oh the whole situations ucks sooo much. and now I'm goign to bed, cuase I'm tired and drunk and to tell the truth I don't know whqat the hell I'm even saying, I'm just typing my thoughts as they come. � � |